Testimony

Testimony

Colton Curtis

July 27, 2009

Street Invaders

Grace. That one word really describes how I see God. Through out my entire life I have always felt his generous warmth on my life, no matter what I got myself into, or where I found myself headed, his grace is their to bring me home.

I grew up in a Christian home. It was almost second nature to get up on Sunday morning and go to church. I found it amusing; I didn’t know what life was like without going to church, it was always there for me. I honestly cannot remember too much from my child hood, just that when I needed God he was always there. However I didn’t have an actual relationship with my savior until my first summer at street invaders. It was there that my eyes were opened to this massive amount of love and beauty that we call God.

I guess I’ll focus on the past two years. I hate to say this, I actually despise it, but my moments at street invaders have been the high points in my spiritual journey with God, I haven’t been able to obtain that on my own. I will come home from street invaders completely God high, then drop; although, through all the ups and downs I have learned so much. One thing I have really grabbed a concept for (especially this past year) is how Satan will do absolutely everything in his power to divorce us from our love, our healer, our Lord. Personally, I feel as if as soon as God and I developed a relationship Satan felt threatened, and did so much to destroy it. I have been involved in so much “crap” this past year, and have done so many things I regret. Yet, god always takes me back. That sentence baffles me, it took so long for me to comprehend how God could still love a wretch like me, and once I figured that out, he started changing things in my life. Things I once found tempting are gone! He has rescued me and it is truly a miracle, and a work that astounds me every single time I think of it.

In the past year I wish I could take back and forget so much, yet Gods grace has somewhat done that for me. I know I still have an ample amount of things to work on, but I know I can only pray and grow in the spirit to improve myself.

My biggest fear in life is that I will not be able to have a firm non-changeable relationship with God. I want to be so firm in my faith and with my spirituality, and for me that is so hard. Yes, I do have a wonderful church, tons of people I can talk to, an incredible Christian family, but I don’t have continual Christian peer support at my side every day. Sometimes, that’s hard to go without. Don’t get me wrong I have wonderful extraordinary Christian friends, just very few. There’s a verse in the bible that says something about the company you keep is what you become. This year has proved that strong for me.

I know I shouldn’t have expectations for this year at street invaders, but I really want to just let go of all that I have kept in this year. Forgive myself for it all, give it all to God, and I want to learn and be faithful… and somehow, someway learn how to fight back to temptation, stand firm in my faith and do everything in love. I thank god for what he has done in my life, he has changed it so much.