Ponder

I see love.
I want to be loved.
I want to love.

So blessed.. remarkable.

Love

I should of done this a long time ago.

So In my last post I guessed what the bible says about temptaion.. why didn't I take timeto actually read it and learn? I don't know.. but hey I just did, and it was awesome... so here are just a few things that "wowed" me.

When you're tempted, it's because something inside of you likes to do the wrong thing, something you know you shouldn't do. The problem is in you, not in the thing you want to do. God has made you new in Jesus. You may still like what you know is wrong, but you will like pleasing God more.

Also, Satan may tempt you, but he can't make you sin. It's your choice, and you don't have to chose to do wrong. You're free to choose what is right. In Matthew 4:1-11 it takes about how The devil tried to tempt Jesus... haha well that didn't work to well, Jesus definetly knew what he was doing the conversation went something like..
J- I am hungry
S- If you're hungry and you're the son of God, why don't you turn these stones into bread?
J- It is written that man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.
(They move to ontop of the highest mountain)
S- If you are the son of God, throw yourself down, it is written that "he will command his angels concerning you, and they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone."
J- Dude, it is also written " Do not put the Lord your God to the test."
(They look down the mountain at the big cities)
S- I will give you all this if you bow down and worship me!
J- Away from me Satan! Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only!

So that totally shows that we are capable of not being tempted by the devil.. but then I thought, that was Jesus.. I can't do that, Jesus is the only one that could ever do something like that.

I was wrong... but, what else is new.

In James 4:7 it says that if we(human beings, rotten selfish people who sin) submit ourselves to God we can resist the devil and he will flee from us.

So... I was like woah that is pretty awesome...

It's wierd the feeling I get when I take time to just stop stressing, and being pissed off, to read the bible.. I enver thought that was really fun, but when you have a bible you can understand and you apply it to your everyday life and stuff that you are going through it is crazy cool! I am feeling pretty content right now.. ha! The thing is I wish I could find time in each day to spend this much time and feel like I have actually learned something for myself. It is know fun when the only reason you do this is because you're upset about something...

I think that should be a new years resolution... it could be tricky but hey I ahve so much I want to do, why not add this one more very important thing?

My new years resolution list: ( almost like a to-do list)

-Go to the gym (use up that member ship!)
-Read more in general, less computer!
-Read Bible Everyday, actually do it!
-Change the stuff about me I don't like.
-Paint
-Write
-Direct play by end of March to raise money for street invaiders.
-School Production
-Dance/Voice/TNB, plus TNB production in June.

I can do that, easily... who needs sleep anyway?

Good day, Good day!

Temptation.

Everyone has something that haunts them...
That tempts them, to... sin? To... do something wrong(in someones eyes)

For me, it is a sin that I feel dissapoints God, but really its dissapoints me ALSO! DANGGGG
I mean all that hard work flushed down the drain and not only my hard work, but like my prays for stuff. I completly ruin everything(all the chances) I have been given by falling into this temptation(s)...

I don't know what the bible says about temptation,,, probably that it's really bad.. Gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SILLY ME!

God gave me these things ... these things that I feel that I have to give up for him..
BUT THAT IS STUPID!
He gave me them, so I have to learn to not give them up but to use them the way I should..

WOAH! I think I have a problem I think... I think I think too much... maybe?

Dear Justin Gaston, GO PUT ON SOME CLOTHES AND LEAVE MY GIRLFRIEND ALONE!

SO I figured it out... I know what is making me *not tick*... I am not giving myself up, letting go of all my ambitions, desires, habits, dreams... etc, for God. I won't let him take the reigns, and I am not sure how to do that.. Once again my mind is in jumbles. And to top it all off, I just found out my girlfriend has been cheating on me... WITH AN UNDERWEAR MODEL OF ALL PEOPLE!... Way to go Miley, thanks for breaking my heart. That's besides the point.. I will get over her.

Back to God.... WAIT UP! HOLD ON! Did you hear that? THAT IS MY LIFE!!! (Going Back To God)... I constantly leave him in the background of my life, replacing him with what I want(selfish needs), which is not always good... ex: BAD STUFF!

I don't know If I can juut give stuff up, like dreams and whatnot.. I honestly think I may be that selfish that I cannot do it... And other things, like certain bad habits.. I have been trying to break them, but it's hard.

wow, if people who don't believe in God read this they could totally get the wrong impression...

Man oh man...