This may be selfish of me, but I feel like I need a vacation from life for a bit. School is done, and I can sleep in, but I feel like I need to move somewhere where God and I can be alone together, even just for a bit.
For some reason, I feel like God and I aren't talking, and I know very well I am not trying hard enough, but I don't even remember how God speaks to me. Or if he ever did.
Sometimes I get frustrated because I feel that every summer I get god high then I am on a high and it goes on and on. I feel bad for people who read this because I am constantly complaining about how upsetting my relationship with god is, when really I don't have a right to complain until I buckle down and try until I die...
What is keeping me from that? I have potential... I need to keep trying, really actually try and not be so darn lazy. Maybe then i can write in my blog about things God is doing in my life, instead of talking about how boring I am because God isn't in my life... man I get angry at myself...
Someone please hold me accountable, and forgive me for this endless blog of garbage!
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